Caleb Storms Rants of a Madman

church

2006-05-18T08:26:00.000-07:00

"Do What thou wilt shall be the whole of the law"

Its been awhile since i posted, and that's basically because of all the stuff going on. The bulk of it is a church. No I Haven't been born again or anything. I decided after some prompting by my students to start my own church. At this point we have a charter and a building at least for the time being. I put an advisory committee together and am now getting into the guts of forming a formal church. Its been a lot of work, but I'm excited about it.

The strange thing is now i'm wondering whether i'm qualified to be a spiritual leader. I say strange because I have been acting in that capacity for years now. There is just something so formal about legally taking on the title of minister that I find strange. Last night all i dreamed about was clergy clothing and coming face to face with a priest while in priest garb. I know what this is all about, and most likely the reason I haven't done this sooner. I see myself as being a very humble person. I have never felt like I was all that special. It has always been others that have put me in the position of spiritual leader. My life has however lead me to this place, that it seems like the next obvious step. I afterall have dedicated my life to the practice and teaching of spiritual things. It only seems fair that I should get the respect that others get living as spiritual advisors. So wish me luck.

Love is the law, Love Under Will

Briah Kether 7/11

2006-03-03T10:16:00.000-08:00

"Do What Thou Wilt Shall Be the Whole of the Law"

I invoked today, its been a couple of days since I have. It was strange I felt the heat of my body rise as I invoked. I've been kinda sick so it was as if the energy was trying to burn the rest of it out of me. Since then i'm kinda feverish but I don't feel bad at all. I'm actually full of energy and ready to move ahead with my day.

It seems like every step that I take with Briah a different layer of stuff gets revealed to me. With each working I become more aware of my own emotional life and those around me. Yet the odd part is that because I'm looking at it from Kether's point of view, I am watching them float through me. I have a strange kind of detachment from them. Yet at the same time I still feel them. It is a very odd combination. I'm not really sure were it is all leading. I do however see how crazy feelings can be. I guess thats why they are called feelings and not thoughts. They are not rational at all.

Love is the Law, Love Under Will

Briah Kether 5/11

2006-02-14T13:15:00.000-08:00

Briah Kether 5/11

"Do What Thou Wilt Shall Be the Whole of the Law"

I invoked today and It took awhile to get into it, but I did and heard my voice thunder through the universe. I am back to my old, very old self once again. The vastness of the liquid light flowed out of me like a never ending sea. I feel my work and my life going forward. It is a welcomed feeling.

Last night was my first class at the new space. It was a nice size class and a wonderful way to celebrate my birthday. I am not at all unhappy about being older or even being alone. I spent yesterday baking with Zack. I can think of no better way to celebrate life.

Today I woke up rough, tired from the circle the night before I imagine, however now after invoking I feel refreshed and have a smile on my face. I really feel like the hardest aspects of the One I have gone through, now it is all about reclaiming my life, my destiny and my Great Work. This was very clear at the psychic circle last night as we went around the room all of them picked up on this new energy around me. It was interesting watching them try to put it in to words. This is a much different chapter in my life. The old ways are long dead and for the first time I truly feel that.

Today I'm working on my web site and trying to let this new feeling of liberation sink in. Magick is a wonderful thing.

"Love is the Law, Love Under Will"

briah kether 4/11

2006-02-09T10:03:00.000-08:00

Briah Kether 4/11

"Do What Thou Wilt Shall Be the Whole of the Law"

I invoked today for the first time since I moved. It felt good and even now I feel that a very ancient part of me is being awakened. I feel strongly that I will be able to finish the work with One this time. I have looked at myself in the eye and faced my demons. I have faced my aloneness and my unity or my place within the universe. I feel that all that is left is to build on what I have found and move out of the shadows and let the world see me.

This energy makes me feel crazy at times, but not the kind of crazy that is dangerous. It makes me feel that I am floating in the vast ocean of all things, and that I can feel all the movements within the universe. It is a calm kind of crazy, but hard to express. It is the wise man sitting on the mountain alone, yet still being connected to the village below. Hearing their thoughts, knowing their fears, fulfilling their dreams.

The waters of thee
how deep they flow
the depth of thee
is beyond all i have known

the waves i make
effect thee not
thou art endless
nothing disturbs thine surface

allow me to float
i surrender to thee
i will go were i must
to do the will of all

I am thine captive ship
sailing on thine waves
what shore i land
is up to thee

my beloved ocean
my ancient depth
I love thee and praise thee
i sought thee and found thee

from the darkest of the deep
were satan dwells
to the shimmering light
on which metatron dances

I see thee
I feel thee
I praise thee
i am thee

On some other notes, I finely started fixing my art galleries and started to think of my next projects. Now the apprentice gallery is on line with optimized flash and store intact. Very exciting.

Also My uncle had a stroke last night, he is not doing well. That is a sad note, he has always been an inspiration to me. I hope he recovers. I am sending all I can.

"Love is the Law, Love Under Will

Moving ....on ?

2006-02-07T18:05:00.000-08:00

"Do What Thou Wilt Shall Be the Whole of the Law"

Briah Kether 3/11

I'm starting to feel productive again. Worked on my site today and updated all my contact info and divided it into chapters of sorts. I need to finish the music and art sections of it, but still.

I haven't invoked since I moved I need to do that today. I feel a great need to finish this work. Each step seems to heal some very old wound. It is no wonder that I have had to stop this work in the past.

I don't feel as alone as I have, although I still would like to rest my head in the lap of another, I'm not sure if this is part of the work or not. I think the overall issue is but it doesn't seem like the place of one to desire a relationship. Although it does make since to want a feeling of belonging to something or to be annihilated in the arms of another. Old memories of pleasure and pain from love long gone away fills me now.

I searched for your name
is that your picture i found
so hard to tell
time changes all

I miss you still
don't ever think i don't
you were the one
that changed me

you were not just a lover
you were thee lover
i would take you again
no matter what cost

don't ever believe i didn't care
that i tried to replace you
I can not
you were and still are my love

I hoped over the years
you would find me
i dropped crumbs along the way
did you find them

i'm tempted to speak your name
out loud from the roofs
i will not however
i will only say

my green eyed boy
i miss you
my green haired boy
i miss you

yes its you that i speak
only you would know
for there has been only one
green boy for me

please answer from anywhere
i will be glad to hear
if you are well
if you miss me as well

"Love is the Law, Love Under Will"