To Much Angry

Dear Son,

Many years ago, mainly due to you I wanted to let go of all of the anger that had built up in me. The rage that I had carried for years. I didn't want you to inherit that anger, I wanted you to instead to be filled with peace and not hate.

That was when I really started to take all the things that Buddha taught a little more seriously. I started to develop compassion, or at least try. It was easy with you there, all I had to do was look at my little Buddha and my heart was full of compassion. Slowly over time my anger faded and compassion took its place.

With you not here it was much harder for me to stay in a state of compassion. Thats when the work really began. Not to mention the anger I felt toward those that took you away from me. Then I listened to a wise man, I went and seen the Dalai Lama speak and it was like he was speaking to me. He said "The most important thing a parent can do is teach their children compassion". I cried for days after that. It was very profound to me and led me to believe I was looking at everything in the wrong way. I lost my rage and just decided to love you and try to have compassion for you and those that took you away. The way I did this was first think of you, my wonderful son and then put others in your place and slowly over time I could actually feel the same compassion for them. It helped me to see their suffering and have compassion for them. My anger faded and my heart was filled with great joy.

Once again you were my little Buddha, even with you not in my life you were teaching me to love. So son, if you find your heart filled with anger, think of something or someone that you love. The heart can not hold compassion and anger at the same time.

I love you and miss you.

Good night son.

Caleb Storms